I just do these blog things becuase its a nice way to vent or just say something to get it out. Its a good outlet, so more random thoughts:
I am sort of seeing this guy, a really nice guy but we aren’t dating and we aren’t just friends. I see him a lot lately and we really enjoy being around eachother and we have talked about getting together but we are both coming out of less than ideal times and want to take things slow, but things are progressing really well. Like last night, we are texting(like always) and I mention that I can’t sleep. Next thing I know, he’s on the phone singing me to sleep. A lullaby that is really really sweet that I’ve never heard before. And of course he’s no Josh Groban but its beautiful nontheless. And I caught myself thinking, I could really fall for this guy.
But then I think about my ex and how things worked out and it makes me wonder if I’m not good enough for him. He’s a sweet guy, fun and mature and all those good things. I’d hate to think that if I were to get any closer to him, he’d get too close and I’d run again. Thats what I do, and thats not self loathing or a cry for help speaking up- its just fact.
Because I am me, am I good enough for him? What to do?